Breakfast for lunch. Lunch for breakfast.
Dinner being the first meal of the day?
Huh?! WAH no Cocopops or Cornflakes?
What’s wrong with you woman? Everyone has cereal for breakfast and they have done so for decades.. Um dont they?!
The last 6 months I have shifted from the more western conventional breakfast foods like “cereal”, “pancakes with syrup”"toast”, “fruit salad” “crumpets with honey or jam” (ooo I miss a good crumpet, but dont miss the addictive carbohydrates cycle) to eating more whole food, protein & good fats for breakfast. I even eat this way at lunch & dinner. I dont discriminate. If I want a steak for breakfast with salad then I will have it if I desire. Long gone were the cereals & toast thrown out and in came the eggs, veggies & coconut oil. When I am focused on a plan that cuts out sugar & toxic oil then my skin clears, my mid section reduces in size, less bloated and I am a better person to be around.
Today I made a bacon, leek, goats cheese, tomato & spinach frittata for breakfast. Yesterday’s breakfast was spicy Paleo chicken rissoles with salad. This sure beats Special K!
Now some people may find the idea of steak first thing in the morning quite revolting and that’s quite okay! I am not the food police, there is no wrong or right way to eat breakfast. The most SATISFYING meal I find however is one balanced with protein, no additives, no sugar, a good dollop of grass-fed butter or coconut oil and vegies or a piece of fruit if you wish.
I am trying to make better breakfast alternatives in the household for my husband so that I can still eat healthy and eat foods we can both appreciate. Although there is time to compromise. He still eats toast ( I dont) but I make his toast with cottage cheese, cracked pepper on top with 2 boiled eggs on the side which he quite enjoys (I stole all the bacon this morning in my frittata haha!). I will not force him to eat how I do but I do appreciate having a household that isn’t full of convenience foods. The less the better in my opinion. Already I can see the change in his body shape after cutting out the sugary mueslis & cereals. (Not from starvation I promise you!)
I have heard of those in the primal/paleo community that make smoothies for breakfast with a mixture of coconut oil or milk, berries, egg, fruit blend & a protein powder of some sort. This is a good choice if you are on the go and need something quick to have going out the door first thing.
The products I come across in supermarkets & health food stores is absolute rubbish. I tried the protein shakes & bars out on the market in the past and I have to say that I dont appreciate them anymore. I dont trust what is being put into my body. All those unnatural flavours and preservatives to make the shake taste like a chocolate fudge or strawberry milkshake it really isn’t good for someone like me that wants to break the chains of sugar & foods with additives & preservatives. Plus read the ingredients list next time you pick up a protein bar or shake, it really is frightening! What are we consuming??
I found a protein supplement on the market in Australia that doesn’t have scary ingredients. In fact it addressed all my concerns and I bought a container to try. I quite enjoyed it to try, but would best be served with coconut milk or cows’s milk mixed in a fruit smoothie as it isn’t quite sweet in flavour at all. There is a cocoa & coconut flavoured base. This isn’t anything like the products you see on the market that dissolve when you add water, this is REAL ingredients that float around in your glass or shaker. What a relief. You could also use the coconut protein base to add to rissole mix, topping for yoghurt you could use it a number of ways. You can find information here on 180nutrition protein superfood.
( Please note, I have not been paid to promote or endorse the 180nutrition brand, these are my own observations.)
Today is my shopping day and to plan for a number of meals for myself and my husband. Oh where to start? Preparation & motivation usually is not my name but today I must try. Have to make a difference this week, break the cycle of bad habits & do something about my situation.
What does breakfast mean for you?
What foods do you associate with breakfast & what kind of foods do you eat?
Thankyou for reading I hope to hear from you soon!
So long suckas!
Am feeling alot better after the disastrous last few days of mental hell. I feel more balanced, a little happier and a little more positive. After I left my last blog note, I picked my husband up from work, dropped him home then hit the pool for a swim. My last attempt was 600m if I recall correctly? I decided to get back into the pool and just see if I can beat that distance. About half an hour I crossed that line & hit the lane wall. Hey I thought, Let’s see if I can smash the next 2 laps. 700m, okay that is good you are feeling it now. Tears are flowing, this is painful. Lucky there is only a few people in the lane. I hate when the slow lanes are overcrowded you feel a certain pressure to keep moving otherwise you will get stomped and sloshed on by the people coming up behind you. So I felt relaxed & focused. 800m. Wow I could stop but let’s see if I can get to a kilometre, it really isn’t that far. Between strokes of freestyle, breaststroke & just floating I made it. In 56 minutes I hit my target. So thrilled my first kilometre ever! Although I had alot of breaks it was good to finally see this goal through. The aim next time is to see if I can bypass 25mins without stopping, I have not managed to make 50m without stopping for a rest. So that is my goal.
Hubby was pleased and was encouraging! So tired we both retired in the evening with a dinner of free range chicken wings/drumettes in a mixture I made up, baked & ate like little greasy monkeys. It was awesome. What complemented the wings was our first introduction to a viewing of American Horror Story. Awesome, warped & deliciously evil. I remember Nadia telling me about this season along time ago so I finally got around to watching it and I am hooked.
Has anyone else watched American Horror Story what did you think of it?
So, what a week, what a last few weeks. I had quite an eye opening experience, I went through alot of self discovery and most of all forgiveness. I forgave that person inside for going back to junkfood, wheat products, eating sugary laden treats and not listening to what advice was given and what I had learnt the last few years. I KNEW what I had to do. I KNEW what was going to send me further down the hole and what would lead me to safety, but simply put I didn’t give a shit and didn’t want any of it. It was too hard, too painful to face and just felt like bricks were tied to my feet. Dragging along hard weights, everything felt heavy and hurt.
A scenario at the supermarket a few days ago was a classic example of where time stands still in depression. You are not aware of space or of anything really just merely “existing” fumbling around, picking up random items putting them back not really paying attention. All of a sudden you are confronted & wedged out of the hole you are in and facing reality. I had a woman who called out to me and came up to me who looked abosolutely lovely, like an angel, big smile, healthy weight looked wonderful and she said to me. WOW you look absolutely STUNNING! Where did you get that dress? You look fantastic in it, it realllly looks wonderful on you and suits you so much. Me??? Stunning?!!! I was taken back, here I was moping around the supermarket with my basket lost in the droning of the supermarket elevator music, felt like shit, hair a mess and out of the blue this stranger tells me I am stunning. It was the words I needed to break down the glass of depression in that very moment. A total stranger changed my day for me. Imagine for a moment out of the thousands of people we encounter each day, a smile a comment or action can change the course of someone’s day. This could save a life. Amazing. This changed the course of my week and where I was heading.
How long can someone be down for and not get the courage to move forward? Sometimes it can take a while, but depends on the strength of the person inside. Courage. Commitment. Perserverance. Always seeing forward, Always looking at the golden reward ahead. Not going backwards, not giving up, not giving in to negative thoughts & influences. I envy people that can just “get it” and move on with their day. Not me so easierly but I can certainly put up a damn good fight!
I had my first week back at proper training at Survivors and it was good. I was glad to be back and doing something positive for my well being and my body. The people are always friendly, know you by name and are geniunely concerned. Most gyms see you as a number, this place is community and I have made alot of good friends here.
The transform has now started, weigh in time was today after a one hour boot camp session. My weight result well I wasn’t too surprized in the slightest 106.4kg with clothes on. I have alot of fat to lose. That is my reality.However focusing on the positives, my visceral fat isn’t too bad but isn’t too good eithe. The biggest surprize was my muscle mass is high! Even after 2.5 months of being inactive with a back injury I was happy with that. I am glad I didn’t pile on the pounds too much while I was absent. Now it time to ge serious, time to take control.
The support I have recieved this week is incredible. From texts, sharing photos of my food lol, chats with coffee, phone calls etc I dont feel alone in this journey anymore. I have friends that are there with me all the way, I cannot wait to show them what I am made of. This is my time. I am ready to start the Suvivors 10 week transformation program and come out the other end a victor! Vanquish the fat & gain my life back again once and for all.
Looking forward to swearing my arse off at the gym (watching my back of course), eating good Paleo/primal home made low carb goodies & sharing more recipes. I hope over the months I can show off my transformation pictures & see how far I will have come. It sounds so far away but with this event already starting I can sense my mindset shifting & I know that I can really do this.
Take care today, not much time to write got alot on, but I will post again soon!
Don’t hate yourself to make someone else rich. Ever heard that? It’s true.
The way some people feel about themselves, especially in my experience, we have to act a certain way and look a certain way in order to be happy. We will throw money at any guru in order to find nirvana. The freedom, the unbinding or attachment to what holds us back from success. They have the answer, they must be right! We desperately want it to be true.
I have been reading alot on body acceptance and self awareness pages cause this week. Society tells us unless we are a certain weight or size then we are “fat”, overweight and lazy and that we should be doing more. Eat less & exercise more. At what cost?
The latest fad or diet product is out on the market that promises to strip away the pounds in little to no time. The latest gym gimmick or product is the answer to our prayers. Sign up now and your dreams will be fulfilled and you will be an accepted member of society. Torturing our bodies with never ending diet plans, gym memberships, thigh blasters & worshipping photoshopped images of bikini ready bodies in the social pages is enough to drive anyone with poor self esteem mad.
Whatever happened to accepting our bodies for what they are at this particular point in time while on the journey to good health and happiness? Why the self loathing and hate? Why do we constantly go searching for the miracle product that promises to make us happy. It only sets the user up for failure. Why should I be focusing on food group ratios, weighing and obsessing over fat and water losses.? What kind of sick people are we to be so caught up with ourselves and the latest diet plan that promises to take away our hurts and solve all our problems. It really is not that simple. Ask anyone in your circle of friends if they are on a diet, and you will find the most common is answer is yes and/ or contemplating going on a diet and then go in and waffle about their latest discovery of diet porn that promises a new body in 4 weeks. It really is unrealistic and unhealthy.
“I lost 5kg in one week on the soup diet!”" “I was a good girl , I didnt eat that chocolate slice oh but I had a low fat yoghurt, a muesli bar & bag of gluten free/fat free crisps!!” “I put on so much weight on that cruise time to eat salad for a month!” “I am on the wedding dress diet I have to look perfect for my big day!” “He will love me, if only I was smaller!” “Look at her, she has really let herself go”. “Should you really be eating that?” “Oh I have already had junkfood today, whats another packet of biscuits gonna to matter? time to start the “diet” again next week” “I was so bad over Christmas, my new years resolution is to be skinny, workout & not eat rice for a year!”
How are the above statements not bordering on insanity? I have used them many times over they years, and have heard others utter them to each other in social circles. I am certainly not a saint. This just encourage patterns of eating disorder behaviour & obsessive tendencies.
Who the hell are we to judge and comment on other people’s eating habits and offer our pearls of wisdom?. It really is non of our business. We dont know that person’s journey. We cannot possibly comment unless we are that person walking in their shoes. What about just loving that person for who we are? It is possible to be able to love ourselves no matter our size and not see life as a constant starvation diet of shakes and empty wallet pockets?
The amount of money I have poured into training sessions, memberships, diet products, magazines, subscriptions, pills, counselling & psych sessions, medication, thigh and tummy tucker underwear, cookbooks, e books, blogs, everything just promises and promises. I shudder to think of the cost, sometimes I think I take 5 steps forward and 10 steps back cause my mind isn’t in the same place where I want to go.
We may go alright for a while cause the idea is new and exciting but like most things it gets old then the previous habits come back the ones we tried to avoid cause it was “bad” and “naughty”. That negative attachment to food and exercise it will constantly beat on the front door and will not leave us alone. It’s not until we can sit down and truly face ourselves and say that eating food is a natural function and healthy, it’s okay to eat to survive. I highly doubt the cavemen would look into reflections of the pond and say to themselves I am so fat I think I will eat less today and go and cry in their mammoth stew! I would imagine that they ate to survive & ate only when they were hungry.
This experiment is harder than when I first envisioned. Perhaps my mistake was to still think in “diet” or “deprivation mode”. Cannot have this or that & eliminate food groups. NO CARBS or FAT! You aren’t worthy! Guilt sets in. Not trying hard enough. You are fat & lazy.
You couldn’t even finish jogging the 8.2km fun run the day before, you had to walk the last few kilometres. Fat pig. Unrealistic thoughts maybe thinking that my fitness would be where it was 3 months ago? Setting myself up for failure before I began?
See that’s another punishing thought process. That negative association and comparisation to others I am trying to avoid using. Over time I am sure that I can overcome & just be happy with being me. A healthier version, that is strong, fit and just living her life to the fullest and not in a fog of regret & diet bars.
Whatever just happened to eating just whenever we are hungry?
No set times or bullshit rules.
Is enjoyment for good food lost forever in the sea of the billion dollar diet industry?
Can we really lose the love hate relationship for food and ourselves and just “let it be?”
Remove the stressful elements of our behaviour & let love take over.
That will continue to be my working progress.
Thankyou for reading, and here’s to a happier February
Spicy Paleo Chicken Wings & Drummys
- 15 pieces of mixed chicken wings, chicken drumsticks
- coconut oil about 3 tablespoons all up
- lemon basil chopped roughly
- chilli flakes about a few tablespoons or chilli sauce if you prefer
- coconut aminos about a few tablespoons (soy sauce alternative)
- 1 tablespoon of coconut vinegar or plain vinegar
- 1 tablespoon maple syrup (didnt have honey)
- squeezed half lemon
- 1 large clove of garlic crushed
- salt & pepper
Dont need to be precise just throw the ingredients together above (cept chicken pieces) into a saucepan & gently heat on low until flavours are combined. Mix & pour on chicken pieces in a dish & bake for about half hour-45minutes on 200 degrees until browned. Every so often baste the chicken pieces with the juices in the pan. (Dont forget to rub coconut oil & salt on raw pieces first) Not bad but very messy! You are welcome to strain the basil first before adding to chicken if you prefer.
Yep. It’s official I am never buying free range duck eggs again. UGH. I bought them on a whim and thought I could make something nice with them. I heard they were quite a strong flavour so I was prepared for the worst. I wasn’t baking a cake or making custard I was planning on an omelette for breakfast to have a change from chicken eggs. Boy I made this omelette & it was just bland as hell. I’m guessing some chilli & some extra cheese would be good for the Primal eaters. I even added extra goats cheese on mine cause I couldnt handle that weird ”eggy” taste. My mind wanted chicken egg & my tastebuds got this duck thing. It was strange. I would most likely blend these in a sweet coconut milk dessert or something or bake a slice with them as the yolks are thick and large.
Has anyone used duck eggs before? What on earth do you cook with them?
Please leave a comment below, I would like some more ideas. Perhaps I was a little nasty and should give these eggs a second chance. But not for a while. Seriously. I make some bad food but this lacked flavour and balance. Oops. Husband reported that his portion was bitter and strong. Don’t think it was the egg more the goat’s cheese. I love goat’s cheese. LOVE it. Fresh bought goat’s cheese is the best. Not the shit sitting in tubs for weeks. The beautiful gorgeous creamy curd just takes dishes to a whole new level. If you haven’t tried goat’s cheese then you must if you can tolerate dairy products and are doing the Primal approach.
My dish was quite simple, saute mushroom, shallots in a pan with a few tablespoons of butter *(should have added garlic oh well). At the same time whisk 6 duck eggs (or chicken eggs) in a dish with a handful of goats cheese crumbled & pepper. Add to the pan until half set. Finish off under a hot grill until browned. Cut into wedges & serve with extra goat’s cheese, chopped basil & leftover Harissachurri sauce. Chilli is good.
Till next time, be good, dont worry if you have a bad day remember it PASSES!
I am not myself these days.
Far out, what a blistering boiling clown pocket of a day it was yesterday! The mercury hit 46 degrees outside my workplace yesterday. I haven’t felt the bowels of hell in such a long time and I sure as hell don’t wanna repeat anytime soon. On the other end of the world in the UK my family and friends are battling snowmen and ski demons while I wallow in my own sea of hot sweat trickling down the small of my back. I cannot imagine living another life in another country where snow is the norm. I just simply cannot imagine the concept.
It’s like when I watch a Christmas movie set in Europe & the US it’s like a make believe world it doesn’t seem real, it only happens in the movies. Sometimes I think it’s not fair. My back injury prevented me from travelling and experiencing the magic and fantasy of these lands. That’s the thing about life, it’s full of regrets and disappointments. The lesson is simply just letting it be and moving forward with new goals in mind and not dwelling or wallowing in the past. It’s saying to yourself, okay this didn’t go your way, that’s okay to feel sadness I will let you validate those feelings but its now time to move forward. Easy does it.
Today I woke up and it felt like a HUGE weight was crushing me in the same spot. My stomach was twisted in a knot and inside I felt low and miserable, like my insides were going to explode in a huge bloody puddle. My body was wrecked with sadness. I have come across this before. All I can say is that it runs in a cycle & about every few weeks I hit a wall. Anyone that suffers from depression & mental illness knows that it’s not easy. Somedays you feel on top of the world and invincible. The next moment that same room of sanctuary becomes your enemy grounds. I never know when it’s going to hit. When it does finally crash, I just want to disappear from the world and not be apart of it. This wave of crushing emotions can affect digestion and boy did I feel it. I had to cancel my swimming appointment because I just couldn’t see myself swimming lanes without running to the bathroom to throw up in fear or have to go to the bathroom every few seconds. The best thing is to ride with it like a wave dont fight what is going to happen and eventually you will wash up on the shore of salvation.
I hardly ate a thing today, had a toby’s estate coffee for breakfast”well my nose didn’t run” has to be the air conditioning at work hahah. Just had my my first meal of the day at around 2pm this afternoon. Leftover Salmon Harissachurri which I had made a few nights before. I tell ya, food tastes SO much better a few days later the flavours really infuse together and taste awesome. I dont feel sick or dizzy or feel weak. I had my first taste of Intermittent Fasting. It certainly wasn’t intentional, I just didnt feel like any food and I wasn’t starving myself or making myself eat less. My body just didnt give off the hunger signals at all.
Fantastic post via The Paleo Angel. Part of what she says is similar to how I am feeling about food and pressure to look good in general http://civilizedcavemancooking.com/reviews/how-intermittent-fasting-saved-mewhile-slowly-killing-me/
Shopping was a little better today, I love Saturday morning shopping. I made a point of trying different things and buying foods that will help me in the upcoming weeks. Macadamia spread, Lemon basil, duck eggs, turkey stock, lots of veggies, goats cheese & nitrate free bacon. Nom Nom!!! Good friends help with the blues. I forced myself to go out and shop with a pair of lovely ladies who never fail to bring me a smile or a laugh.
Later I hit the garage sales in town, a bunch of gothic student types all had their possessions on the sidewalk for the public to browse and choose their bits & pieces. So cute they made a gorgeous iced tea in a lovely glass pot and had washed jam jars for serving beverages for their thirsty crowd. There was also cupcakes and a gorgeous chocolate cake with glossy icing on top begging & tempting to be tasted and shared. I had no emotions towards this offering nor did I feel that I should succumb to such delights. It was a test and I had passed. I did not let the sugar fairy win. I did however buy a book on Vegan Cooking to give to a girlfriend in the UK, a pair of swallow earrings, a pair of musical note earrings, & 2 other books for myself. One with the title “I am Not Myself These Days” That cover really spoke to me, it how I truly felt as I silently rummaged through the pile of street clutter. I read the back of the cover and had a giggle. It was by Josh Kilmer-Purcell, a renowned drag performer and this was his memoir. I am looking foward to reading this. My husband always says I dont pay enough attention to reading or take up a creative interest. Lies sir! I just bought myself a book to read! LOL
The second week weigh in result I took to heart, it was HARD. The scales had read a result of 102.8kg. If I recall correctly this is a 100gm gain since last Saturday. So it’s a loss of 2.3kg total since start of journey 1st week of January 2013. About a gain of a small glass of water or a packet of ham so I am not fussed. My clothes feel smaller and my skin it looking really good and healthy (no dry skin or breakouts, pores less congested, dark circles are fading). Mid section doesn’t look so chunky either, still she needs work!. I am going in the right direction and I haven’t had any hideous binges of any kind at all. In fact this blog saves me If I feel the urge to eat I think of the consequences and what I would tell my audience and because I want to do well, this keeps me in line.
What has this week taught me? How can I prevent a gain and obtain a 500gm (1 pound) loss next week?
- Need to drink more water, average was 1 litre a day if I can get to 2 litres a day I’ll be winning
- Less nuts for snacks, in fact try not to snack, most likely it is boredom although if you REALLY need to eat. then do it if it is true hunger.
- Plan and diarise exercise appointments
- Shop regularly and make lots of healthy meals full of protein, veggies & good fats try not to eat the same thing
- Stay away from dried fruits and too much fructose laden foods. A piece of fresh fruit is fine but see it as a treat.
- Enjoy life and not stress bout losing weight when the mind is happy the body follows
Stay tuned for upcoming blog entries, I will be posting a heroes page where I list some of the people who have inspired me over the years and who I heart. I will soon have an interview posted with a wonderful woman who has changed her life around for the better and will offer her advice on how to stay on track and help with motivation.
Till next time stay happy & healthy.
Right! Off for a swim try and get my 650m done and dusted! Been a few days now!